I don't want to forget

I don't want to forget.

I don't want to take pride in the 'spirit of Mumbai'. Or India for that matter.

I don't want to be 'strong and resilient'.

I don't want to listen to the blame game between the political parties.

I don't want Narendra Modi and BJP and all the fuckhead right wing people condemning the death of Hemant Karkare.

I don't care about the screwed up compensation packages.

I don't want to look at every single person on the road with suspicion.

I don't want to start saying mental goodbyes to my family everytime I step out of the house.

I don't want to freak out everytime I see a car jump a red light.

I don't want the media asking families of the deceased 'How are you feeling?'. WTF?

Enough. Enough. Enough.

1 bomb blast every month. The worst terror attack ever in India. Trauma and panic. Something the families and the hostages will never ever forget. Enough.

Bastards. Fuck you bastards. I am seething mad. So so so angry.

And terribly scared.

I don't want to forget.